is the hardest lesson I've ever had to learn. Letting go of my cats is probably the most heartbreaking - worse than letting go of my husband, I think. Isn't that weird? Anyhow, this is where my cats (the five that haven't been adopted out: Eddie, Walter, Louis, Lucie Bee and Sophie) live now - and Tim says they seem to be quite happy on the farm. Apparently they are quite adept at catching small moles - even without claws. Sophie always was something of a serious huntress and Ed, well, he's just Ed, the love of my life. I miss him more than I can say.
I'm also letting go of the idea of ever having a relationship with my sister. They say you should never ask a question you don't already know the answer to, but I had prayed and prayed about how to mend things with my only sibling and when I went to see her (she happened to be in town at my parent's old house) - let's just say it wasn't pretty and I didn't get to talk to her at all. But that's another story, which I know will someday find its way into my writing - it was sad and hilariously funny all at once. And the more I think about it, the funnier it gets. So that's that.And finally, today I let go of some more of the past; I sold more of my jewelry to help meet my looming financial obligation. It's just stuff, I keep telling myself, but it didn't make it any easier seeing it go. I've only hung on to my emerald engagement ring, a little diamond anniversary ring, a pretty peridot and my favorite amethyst earrings. I mean, how much can you wear at any one time? It was pretty stuff, but it's still just stuff.
My friend Dawn,
ReplyDeleteI thank God for your stength. You are alive and that is why it hurts to let go. They are not just possessions or pets, but they are memories most of all. Sacrifice takes courage. You are wise in choices. "Let go and let God" can be such a cliche' but it is meant as a starting point of healing for you. My prayers are with you that God always be by your side.
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Take Care and be good to yourself!
Yoli :)
The knowledge that your cats are faring well in their new country home may take a little of the sting from their loss. I know it is much more difficult to let go of relationships than things!
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers continue to be with you during this difficult time!!
Sounds like you have had a pretty rough day, but your attitude is amazing.
ReplyDeleteI know it has to be hard and it probably helps to write about it. I firmly believe blogging is good for your health.
Take care sweet sister. I'll pray that God will continue to give you peace.
♥ Joy